Date : Friday, November 6, 2009
Time : 11:59 PM
Title : Despite everything.

happy! nan and cm sit in for tutorial with me and it's the very 1st time EIR is not THAT boring. im usually alone and it's hard to talk to joshua since there's no common topic. luckily the teacher is soooo nice! even welcomed them to join in every tutorial provided there's enough seats.

and i think karma really do exist. maybe i lost my thumbdrive becos i kept on bullying actnice, shortshort, nan and also maryann. if it is so, then it's really harsh becos my project is all inside ): im really scared some ppl might just copy the group's work. and my personal pictures are inside too. blah why would someone take it anyway )':

i made maryann and cm run the tracks 2rounds with me today. taking a step at a time, at least push myself when im still DETERMINED to train up. i wna go back to the point of time when my physical is the best (sec2&3). it's pretty much impossible cos nobody's pushing me. more trainings pleaseeee.

ok i think im mad again.

im really really happy today, despite the tiring wk and things that have been bothering me, becos... of the energy booster :)

thank you.

Date : Thursday, November 5, 2009
Time : 10:27 PM
Title : Suck this.

this is the thing about me.
something which im REALLY particular about.

i totally hate it when people fails to do something, and instead of apologizing, they give you the HECK-CARE attitude. it really annoys me badly. real badly.

it's like you did something wrong and you turn the tables over to make it sound like people forced you to do something which you didnt want to.

SG should make me their "Say Sorry!" ambassador. LOL (joke!)


let me tell you the REAL joke,

i left my phonecard/thumbdrive in school and im now hoping that kind people from IIT sch will not take it and run away with it. my ONE and ONLY CORE project is inside and all the pictures that i wanted to print out today is inside too.

i hope Agnes would be able to get it back from me, for once, ActNice is IsNice! haaaah not funny. 2gb only, cant contain much right? now 4gb MC costs only 18bucks?

funny not?

whooo training tmr! i can feel my fats bouncing, im determined (which usually dont last long) to go on the tracks! i hope.


hate this week, maybe it's Pre-M-S, or im too heaty, im getting irritated at so many people which i usually tolerate. annoying! i think my eyeballs are dropping out anytime sooner from the continuous rolling of eyes. annoying! body very heaty, keep blinking eyes. annoying!

you reading this, you get annoyed!

haaha im mad(happy).

Date :
Time : 7:02 PM
Title : I GOTTA FEELING

Today's a special day :)

Sunday's another special day! :)

tonight's my doomsday :(

Date : Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Time : 8:34 PM
Title : SHORT UPDATE

Date : Monday, November 2, 2009
Time : 11:08 PM
Title : HEY-HO MERRY OH!

im SURPRISINGLY awake today. no sign of fatigue but i just felt like staying in my comfort zone.

i hate the current phone im using. i on the phone and sent ONLY 2 msgs, made a phone call, and the phone was off for the WHOLE day. and the battery still ran out when i wanted to "save" it for after training. luckily CM gonna get my SE for me tmr! ty!^^

remind me to bring SE charger!
and im changing phone, but no idea which phone. no more SE!

training was fine, at least this IS training, unlike 4mths ago, and i think my body is adapting pretty well alr, aches are mild although it's much more tougher than the previous ones. im motivated to do well, 2.5mre mths to IVP.

digressing, i think im a scaredy cat. the path that i walk home from the bus stop is DAMN scary. i kept looking around and it's as though my 6th sense can feel things. wait, is the 6th sense used for such situations? aiya but whatever la, im just on my guard and i look back most of the time.

ok captain's ball tmr! we must win ok.. MUST! it's nt a choice it's an order LOL there's only 3teams so... WE CAN WIN LA! if nt i would seriously bang the wall and die. but if we're gna lose or something (touch wood touch wood), at least a 2nd please. being last is so... you bet im gna keep mum if we get last lol. ive NEVER get last for Captain's ball before ok, pls dont break the chain.

ahhh blister on both legs, right ankle feels loose.
pls dont let me sprain my ankle in track shoes.

ok gna prepare to sleep now... 10-6 tmr zzz
rmb, CANNOT LOSE AH! we singaporeans LOL

& i hope i dont have to scowl at referees tmr.

Date : Saturday, October 31, 2009
Time : 10:52 PM
Title : I'M GIVING UP

and i wasted another saturday morning.

im glad some people are as frustrated as i do. why is everything not confirmed yet? why are we waiting for some IMPORTANT information when the event is just 2wks from now? is this how the authorities do their work?

pardon me. i got a little cranky after reading this book written by a Cambodian girl who was sold to a brothel, raped, beaten, treated like shit and managed to return to the right track of life and helped the other young girls who were suffering the same fate as her.

im so disgusted. when people are DESPERATE for money, they can do everything that is against their moral, even to the extend of selling their daughters as young as 8 to brothels. i cant explain this but i just felt really really angry inside.

corruption, gambling, prostitution, violence... urgh...

anyway, it's true story. the Cambodian girl's the author of the book and has won many awards.

my phone's fixed! merely few hours (- sleeping time) and they got my phone fixed! Wisma where? wanna fix your Sony Ericsson phone? GO EASTPOINT MALL LA! took me just 5mins to settle everything, no queue no nothing! ^^

i secretly hope i would be placed into the POOL of reserves so i need not attend the event anymore. dont ask me why i joined in the first place.


horrible, they lessen my sleep hours :)

Date : Thursday, October 29, 2009
Time : 10:19 PM
Title : cant think of any

im on the verge of quitting alr. the only reason why im staying is because Touching & ActNice are participating, although doing different roles, at least there's Touching to attend trainings with. But it's annoying, like how they give the heck-care attitude when they say if you dont have the heart, then dont join (after every email they send).

so why would there be any reserves when they claimed that there would not be any in the first place? this is not even about helping people who are physically disabled. it's SERVING and being a HELPER at an international event.

if im not chosen for the L/O thing on Saturday, i swear i'll not go for any of the other trainings alr. for all the saturdays that ive wasted (wake up at 7am somemore -.-) and the bus/train fare, all down the drain? i could seriously use the time to sleep in and finish up all the projects. talk about being put into a POOL of reserves. i find this absurd.

i dunno, somehow undergrads are taking this opportunity to cave out an opportunity for themselves. but me? im just a yr1 ignorant student who dont even know what job to go for in the future.

anyway!

im in high spirits today (or rather tonight), becos...

my piano teacher praised me! she said i was improving for my 1st song! ok this sound lame to you, but ppl who has never learn any music instrument will not understand. praise me when ive only practiced for 15mins throughout the whole week! im so goddamn happy!! else, i screwed the other 2songs lol.

2to4pm tmr!!^^ another thing to be happy about!

im gonna fix my goddamn phone after cds. i cant stand using my spoilt mp3 where i cant even get to choose what song i wanna listen to.

right, im gna stay happy this way, all the way till...

and i think ive been complaining alot ever since school start. why this? why that! what this person so so and so.. and i know it's annoying because it makes me frustrated. and i think my bad temper is coming back again, i need to suppress the urge to say things that might hurt somebody.


oooh this is getting long-winded, im gna play my WJ and IT now!

SEE YOU WHEN I SEE YOU AGAIN!!

Date : Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Time : 6:54 PM
Title : GAA GAA GOO GOO GEE

been so busy and stress these days! and it's only the 2nd wk of sch.
dont, i repeat, DONT tell me "life is tough, deal with it"

i might just smack your forehead and make you fall backwards.

anyway, im really determine to do well this sem
but....

hell the subjects are getting more and more in depth and i dont understand a toot about them. But at least there's QUAN! something similar to maths! wheeeee~

projects..
there's something i wanna say but unable to. people who know me will know.

GAH! better stop it. shuddup!

right nothing to say alr, bye.

if you think you're smart, think again.

Date : Saturday, October 24, 2009
Time : 8:38 PM
Title : DRAINED

Some people are just worth your time doing everything for them
while some others... dont.

Date : Thursday, October 22, 2009
Time : 6:04 PM
Title : TRYING hard to be sensible.

So. I just fell asleep when i told myself not to.

I didnt want to waste my precious time away since i was able to come back home earlier today, i thought i could do something meaningful or just do something at least. PRECIOUS...

gone.

Just 4hrs of sch and im a goner -.-




Im gonna go offline after dinner, or at least practice the piano or do something else besides watching videos... i'll try, but i cant guarantee ... lol.

lately ive been so lazy...i can no longer trust myself alr.

GOD i dread Saturday. why did i ever land myself in sucha hassle.
wrong choice but it's sucha waste to give up now... after all that ive went through..


those blisters, orientation, anxiety...


guess i'll just stickon, hold on, glue myself, nail myself, cling myself blah blah and bear with it. 3more trainings to the actual event and im done with it. and im scared and worried that i'd screw up big time.

It's like im exchanging labour for a few sentence in my resume.



anyway... does Youtube allow us to download videos?